Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Sofa bound

30 hours of heavy bleeding and about 12 of lighter bleeding later, 5 episodes of Gilmore Girls and 4 of Judging Amy, I still feel tired (though heavy bleeding will do that to you), but there are no more cramps and the boobs are significantly less sore. I am slightly wondering if there is a little "tissue" left but I am pretty sure the hormone levels are back to zero.

I've told work I'll probably work from home on Thursday but be off till then. I feel like a bit of a fraud as physically I am not too bad - the bleeding was a bit less protracted this time - but there is no way I can stand up in front of a lecture theatre full of students without breaking down, especially if I do the planned class on prenatal brain development. This year's cohort are just going to have to remain ignorant on that count.

PS to Thalia: yes, I am under the care of the RPL clinic, but as they can't find anything wrong with me this care is repeated scans starting at 6 weeks - which is too late if you miscarry at 5+2. Don't know if this will change in any subsequent pregnancy, or if they have any other answers - we at least have a few questions - and the appointment on Friday is at the consultant's clinic, which means we'll see him, or one of his entourage, and get to ask those questions.

6 comments:

Thalia said...

Ugh, I'm so sorry. I'm glad the bleeding's over but it's just so rotten that this happened agai.

I can't do judging amy any more, I'm never sure where they are in the overall story and I get confused about continuity.

I thought you were under the care of the RPL group. Didn't they do ANYTHING?

DD said...

If I thought it would help, I would tell you I'm very sorry. If I thought it would help, I would send you virtual hugs.

I'm so sorry. HUGS.

Because I know that in some little way, it does help.

Anonymous said...

Hi - I tried to comment yesterday but it looks like Blogger ate my words. I'm so sorry this is happening. I hope you are getting the support you need from family and friends (though they can miss the mark even when they are trying their best, as I know from my own experience). Thinking of you.

Carrie P

perceval said...

I'm so sorry.

(((you + Spouse)))

swisschard said...

My comment, my condolence, was also swallowed by Blogger.
So I'll repeat, that I have been sad to read of your miscarriage. Not more so, but more empathetically so, because I am also going through another miscarriage, and recognize some of my own conflicted misery in your experience. As a Rationalist (as I fear I am, and see you as), I know that a blighted cell mass and early miscarriage does not a baby make. And yet that doesn't diminsh the poignancy. There was potential, and our capacity to hope is strangely not dimished by reason.
I am sorry for the loss. Gilmore Girls is poor consolation.

e said...

I'm glad you're a Judging Amy and Gilmore Girls fan too. Shame they can't be easily got in the UK.

Again, very sorry you had to endure the disappointment again.