Monday, July 30, 2012

Am I the only one here?

There are times in your life when you do something ordinary for a not very ordinary reason - sometimes not a very good reason.

You wonder if you are the only person doing this for that reason.

Am I the only person having an ultrasound to find out if my baby is dead?

Am I the only person having blood taken to find out if the ERPC worked?

Am I the only person who gets to talk about prenatal brain development to my students, while wondering how far my baby's development got?

Am I the only person asking my employer for annual leave not to sit on a beach, but to go to a frankly not massively exciting adoption preparation course?

Am I the only person sitting in this conference seminar on the latest research on prenatal drug exposure, wondering if I will need to know this for my child?

Are we the only parents with their baby in hospital who didn't give birth to the baby?

Am I the only person picking up prints of their nearly-7-month-old baby to send to his birth mother?

And are we the only family planning next year's holiday to visit their child's birth family.

But I'm happy about the last two. Though, as this will be our last set of monthly photos, I won't miss desperately trying to find the right number of suitable photos at the last minute. We take far too many arty (read: blurred, back view, naked) photos.


Twangypearl the Elastic Girl said...

Sounds like my How Did I Get Here moments.. so fwiw you're not the only one.

It's very odd, this life.

Persnickety said...

I can't say that I have been in your situation, or had those precise moments, but I felt very similarly a few weeks ago about my position, only to be confronted the following day by evidence that others were experiencing what I was. It's hard because no-one talks about these issues much in non-online life.

In a slightly different vein- I am curious/interested in certain aspects of your situation that you (understandbly) don't share online. Specifically the mechanics of how you went through the process of adopting int he US from overseas. If you are ok with talking about it with a vitual stranger, please send me an email. If not- that's ok too.

DrSpouse said...

Persnickety, you can email me, and quite welcome, see the email address at the top!